Temporary
You all are too kind, with your words of sympathy, support, understanding and even commiseration. To speak about the implosion of one’s marriage is almost cathartic. As soon as it’s out there, finally out there, otherwise private individuals are quick to share their own personal tales of connubial woe, of separations, divorce, of nervous breakdowns. [...]
Now What?
That felt bad -the heart rending, gut wrenching, kind of bad that is, at least in film, usually accompanied by sorrowful swells of music. There were tears, especially from G who was, until today, blissfully ignorant of her parents’ faltering relationship. She was blindsided by the quiet admission that we had decided to part ways [...]
Better than the Last
The first day of the year and it’s the coldest day we’ve had to endure since we moved up North three years ago. I suppose it’s best to get the worst out of the way ahead of time. Now the remaining 364 days will feel superior to this one. There’s a foot of new snow [...]
Cruel
As parents of elementary aged children, as former second grader ourselves, we all know that second grade homework can be a bitch.
We’ve been there, hunched over our spelling lists, sputtering and wiping away tears as we try, try, try to remember that “grage” is actually spelled g-a-r-a-g-e. Or that “cercos” is, for some inexplicable [...]
The Same
I’ve returned to blogging skeptically, reluctantly because I know some of things I share here have damaged my already delicate home life and I’m doing a pretty good job fucking that up without rubbing salt in the wounds. But I need this space somehow, this collective nod, the communal understanding, to help me make sense [...]
November
What is it about November that just sucks the soul out of a person? It’s as if the human brain feels the need to keep time with the end of natural beauty and begins a sort of mental hibernation, shedding layers of complexity, raking hobbies and interests and efforts towards personal hygiene into one great [...]
Testing, testing, 1 2 3
I want the rebirth of my blog, after months of silence, to be a worthy of resurrection, celebratory yet familiar, a great sigh of togetherness, an enveloping hug, and, instead, I’m afraid it’s gonna be a bitch session. Forgive me and feel free to turn the other way if this is not the sort of [...]
Large Format Reproductions
I have, in hand, large format reproductions of the property next door. Our neighbors have bulldozed and back-hoed their way to a blank slate, all smooth soil and anticipation. I have promised to help them, to select hedge material and shrubs that will thrive in deep shade, alongside a sunny pool deck and in front [...]
Time Will Tell
Now that I’m spending ridiculous amounts of time with various therapists, hired guns intent on fixing the inner turmoil, I’m learning that there are certain things that generally define a therapy experience. First there is the noise machine that fills the waiting room with crashing waves, chirping crickets, the strains of Tchaikovsky. It is an [...]
Nowhere to go but up…
I know I have left you all to linger on a sad, sad post. I apologize for the poignant pause but it’s the time of year that makes me crazy and somewhat resigned to sacrificing the blog in the interest of sanity. Truth is, I can’t quite figure out how to find time to actually [...]
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